"I determined that I would not only bite the bait, but I'd snap the pole in half."
Do you ever wish you could just get through your illness without having people speculate about whether or not you CAUSED your own disease? Back in my college day, in the late 1970's I had unprotected sex. Often. I don't think that should doom me to die of cancer. What's the worst comment/question you've heard since your diagnosis?
Yesterday I had an ultrasound of my kidneys. Well... one kidney and one empty cavity in my abdomen where a kidney previously resided. I will hear the news about that exam in a few days, and I expect it to be fine, but I also had some great news on Monday, when the oncologist reported that my bone scan revealed no bone metastases.
I do have some deterioration in my bones, and because there is a lot of pain in my hip bones, the oncologist is referring me to a pain specialist and an orthopedic surgeon. They will have ways of relieving my pain, but I am being pro-active and doing what I can to rebuild healthy bone.
I joined a gym, and I've been working out. I tried a yoga class yesterday. I'm really weak, compared to a couple of years ago, but I'm building muscle and strength will return. I'd rather lie here, typing, than get up and go back to the gym today, but that's what I've got to do. I'll hop on a bike, ride there, work out, ride home, and then take a swim in the chilly back yard pool. Yesterday, the cold swim relieved all the pain and inflammation in my muscles.
I love a cold swim. I plan to look younger and hotter in no time, bag or no bag. Well... there will always be a bag. If I ever couldn't get bags, I'd be up "shit" creek, as it were, and even a paddle couldn't save me.
I have had enough of cancer and myriad complications of treatment. I'm quitting. I intend never to be sick again. Follow my journey from Hell to Health.